No. I am not getting married. I am not even close to getting married. I am not even close to finding someone who I could possibly marry. And, no, there is nothing wrong with me.
No. I am not going on a mission. I have prayed, and I have been told no. Just because I am not sacrificing a year and a half of my life does not mean that I am somehow unrighteous and that I am any less deserving of joy.
So stop asking.
Honestly, if there is one thing that bothers me about the culture that I live in, it is that young women seem to only have two options: marriage or mission. The two "M's." But those aren't the only two paths a person can take. Sure, I do want to get married, someday, and I may serve a mission at some point, maybe with my husband or something. But as of right now, I am getting an education. I am working, and learning, and sometimes dying a little bit. And that doesn't make me a bad person.
So stop asking.
I am 20 years old. Barely. I have a lot of life to live. Now, this isn't to say that marriage or a mission ends your freedom and your life. But it is to say that these are BIG steps in life, and I cannot be expected to make them when I barely have 20 years under my belt.
So stop asking.
I am not a crazy feminist lady because I want to have a career. I want to be a choir teacher. Is that so bad? No. It's ok.
So stop asking.
The bottom line is that The Lord has an individual plan for me. It is different than your's, or your sister's (unless I am your sister), or your neighbor's, or anyone else on this earth. Part of MY plan is to live in Logan, study music, and (hopefully) graduate. I know my path, at least for right now, because things change. I am happy with my life, who I am, and where I am going. My fate is between me and The Lord.
So stop asking.
Signing out,
Mandie
